Karena kamu cuma satu

<3 Sarah

One blood

In the far away fires where the hills forever burn, at the feet of our heroes, we try hard to learn but the lesson is lost there in the smoke and the mud. I stood by the river that ran red with shame. I stood in the killing fields where death had no name. I stood with my brothers and away it flood.


Then I felt to the ground. Tasted ashes on my tongue, thinking that only the dead are forever young. There was peace in the twilight and for a moment among it was a world without danger, a world without war. I will take all your suffering. It will do any good.

Cause we are one flesh, one breath, one life, one blood.

We are young

So let’s set the world on fire

We can burn brighter than the sun

(Reminiscence of some fateful nights)

Lost

Centuries pass and still the same. War in our blood, some things never change. Fighting for land and personal gain. Fighting for a better life and to justify our pain. 


We've all been lost for most of this life. Everywhere we turn more hatred surrounds us. And I know that most of us just ain’t right. Following the wrong steps, being led by pride.


How many lives will we take. How many hearts destined to break. Nowhere to run, can't escape. Full of ourselves and tied to our fate.



With peace of mind so hard to find, we're dwelling on the drastic signs. Another way to numb our mind. As you close your eyes tonight and pray for a better life, you’ll see it flying helplessly away.

The end is knocking.

Incomprehensible

Every night I pray that you get bored of the bewildering new taste of flesh before you get too old and every night I read other peoples' lives and claim them as my own. If I was everything I said I was then I am nothing but a coruscation of a world in a palm.


The dry ends of summer hair are taped to the bedside table and they began to ignite thanks to the heat emanating from the open window. My room is the Antarctica that is stuck inside the sun.


I am sick of xxx cases and xxx bottles that only paint lackluster crosses over my eyes. I fancy of being overwhelmed by the intensity of adulation. I longed for the gale of two gasoline pumped hearts colliding. I desire the excruciating experience of aortas splitting like dry spaghetti strands. I want monstro to swallow me up so that I can shoot heroin inside shipwrecks. I'll collapse and become your hidden treasure. 


I am beyond your comprehension.

Lost story

I'd call us all fiction characters, waiting for the writer to put the final period down. Waiting for the book to be closed and tucked away on the highest shelves. One where you need a ladder and it's never to be found ever again.


The world likes conflict. So it makes sense that our life is so fictionalized and beautified for the readers and watchers to gorge themselves with. I suppose we're so entertaining that they claim this is the best show they've ever seen. 


Everyone is a lost story, forgotten in time. This is fact, not fiction.

The cruel teacher

Experience is a cruel teacher. She gives the exams first before the lessons.

Phenomenal experience

Like walking into a dream. So unlike what you've seen, so unsure but it seems, cause we've been waiting for you. Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste of your afterlife. 


Here to stay, you'll be back here soon anyway.

Fiction (Death)

A show of epic proportion. Please please please come again.

Aku maafkan kamu

Timbul tenggelam, timbul tenggelam. Acapkali terpendam, acapkali tersergam. Cermin muka kopak penuh bintik hitam silam. Ini bukan lagu rindu, ini madah dendam.


Ku ditimbang tanpa neraca di awal usia. Ku dihukum masuk neraka oleh manusia. Minta tunjuk lubang atau pintu tak dapat jawapan jitu. Jadi aku tak berganjak biarkan saja begitu. Maafkan mereka, mereka tidak tahu. Mereka tidak ramas buku, mereka segan ilmu. Mereka tidak fasih malah fasik guna kata.


Kita kongsi nama bangsa tapi tidak kasta bahasa.

Dear brother

Those are wonderful thoughts in your eyes. Shining out like there's no tomorrow. There will be one, I promise you. Wait until the counting is over and shout out with your heart, your soul, your everything. Leave regrets behind. Let the only thing in front of you be the trumpet, shining brightly under the lights as strong as your sound.


Don’t let your hat drift in your way, don’t let anyone. Nothing could ever stop you. No, not with determination as bright as your fiery eyes. You’re a knight in shining armor. One of the few. Sensitive and strong, you’re a true friend and worth every god-damned penny anyone’s ever spent on you.


I’d like to make up for the hardships. There’s only so much one person can accomplish but I’ll try my best, my very best.


If only I could be as good as you.

Fast car

I remember we were driving driving in your car. The speed was so fast it felt like I was drunk. City lights lay out before us and your arm felt nice wrapped around my shoulder. I'd always hope for the better and I think maybe you and I would find it. 


I had a feeling that I belonged. I had a feeling I could be someone. 

Oh darling

You seem quite nice for a girl with good looks.

Love

The winter of my heart is beating still to a music heard from some long-distant time. It carries in it a melody too shrill to be heard by human ears. Smiles come a dime a dozen and happiness comes at a cost. We smile for the things we have, we mourn the things we've lost.


If you have lived my life, I'd give you mine. For mine is not worth living. You'd protect me nonetheless, despite my every misgiving. Strayed in a kiss forever with you, drifted somewhere in the fog and the rain. You put a smile upon my face and made me happy again.


Happiness will come here and there but love may come but once. With so few for me to love in this world, I used to believe in only lust. You took me out of the darkness. For so long, I had been blind. You gave me hope in myself and the world. 


You gave me the light I could not find.

Fall

Fallen again, I've lost my wings. Fell for a sweet dream that tasted bitter in the end. But here I am, still wanting more. I'm thirsty and drinking saltwater. For a very short -lived moment, I thought I can enter heaven. Only to find myself being in hell again. 


As I look in the mirror, I see a lost sinner whose attempts to make things better just made everything worse.